March
25, 2015. The memories come flooding back to me as I stare out an open window
at a world that will never be the same. The relentless pain, the endless
crying, the sleepless nights. You broke your promise. You told me that you
would be here as long as I wanted you. It was never a want, it was a need. I didn’t know five years ago that
you would mean so much to me. You’re gone and it feels like part of me is
missing. You were put in my life, when I needed someone to pull me from the
dark pit I was tumbling into. I willingly gave a piece of my heart to you,
never for it to be returned. You gave it back, broken. You’re gone and I don’t
know what to do.
Monday, March 30, 2015
Sunday, March 22, 2015
The Vineyard
The sweet smell of grapes fill the air, as I
make my way down the long path leading to where everyone was waiting, my red
hair pulled up in a braided ponytail, flowers peppering the braid. My dress
drags the ground behind me, collecting sand with each step. Peach flowers line
the rows of white chairs where the guests sit. My grasp on my father’s arm
tightens as we inch closer to the front of the aisle. The pit of my stomach
continues to fill with butterflies as I see the love of my life waiting for me.
His smile grows as he sees me and the amount of butterflies double. My father’s
grip on my arm loosens and my hands get clammy, knowing that in less than a few
minutes, my life will be changed forever. My father plants a quick kiss on my
cheek before giving me away to another man who intends on taking care of me for
the rest of my life.
Saturday, March 21, 2015
My Angels
The
way he was standing, back against the sun, he looked like an angel. The sun his
halo. A dog ran in-between us and his beautiful face sculpted the brightest
smile. His teeth so white, his lips so pink. I couldn’t help but imagine the
form his lips would make saying my name. Another guy came and stood next to my
angel. I looked into his eyes and imagined I was lost at sea, his arms secured
around me, giving me his warmth. He touched my arm and my skin went up in
flames. A car pulled into the park behind us, and I didn’t need to look to see
who it was. “What is this?” I managed to say before the car doors opened and
closed with such force. “You know what this is.” My angel spoke first. I
faintly heard a baby crying in the distance. “Am I dead?” I looked down at my
arms, my scars. The three other guys
joined the blue-eyed beauty and my angel. A gun shot was heard and I watched as
the five guys in front of me fell, one-by-one. Before I could scream, I heard someone
whisper my name. I looked around, the noise getting louder. “Diana!” the person
yelled. I woke with a start to see my husband holding my newborn. Behind him
were my three beautiful boys.
Monday, March 9, 2015
Lie to Me
She stood in front of them, tears falling from
her eyes. Somehow, she knew this meeting wasn’t going to end the way she was
expecting it to. The garden looked bright, vibrant against the grey of the sky.
It was going to rain. The green-eyed man tried to look everywhere but her
tear-stained face. “Say it!” She screamed, “tell me you don’t love me!” She
turned on them. “And you, and you, and you, and you!” She cried. “God damn it!
Just say it already!” She dropped to her knees. “Please, someone just say it so
I can move on.” She begged. They stood over her as she cried, each handing her
a rose, as if to say “Sorry.” For what? They weren’t so sure, but it felt
right. The blue-eyed man bent down and kissed her on the cheek and whispered
every so lightly, “I can’t say that we don’t love you. It would be a lie.” She
cried harder, remembering everything she went through, everything they helped
her through. She thought about the life she had because of them. Happiness. They brought her the happiness she always
yearned for. “Please,” her voice barely
over a whisper, “tell me that you don’t. Lie to me.” The beautiful man with
sea-green eyes stepped forward. It started to rain, a boom of thunder sounded
in the distance. They stood in the rain, not moving. “Lying to you would be us
lying to ourselves, love.” The beautiful man said. The wind picked up speed,
blowing her hair around her face, shielding her falling tears. Another rumble
of thunder sounded as the brown-eyed man put his arm around her. A strike of lightning
flashed in front of them. “Why are you still crying, love? We love you. That’s
all that matters.” He said. She looked
at each one of them and wondered why they cared so much. The rain started to
pour, the sound of thunder approaching quickly. “Please, just tell me.” She
cried. The hazel eyed man walked towards her. He put his hand on her shoulder.
“We don’t love you.” His voice cracked. They turned away from her and her tears
stopped falling. She was finally free from the debt she owed them, that she so
desperately wanted to pay and forget about. Each of the men kept a part of her
that she willingly gave to them, in hopes to never get back. They took her bad
parts in exchange for good. She was good. She was better. She was finally
happy.
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